This has been a hard week! It started off great! I had a wonderful walk to get frozen treats with my friends last Sunday and then my birthday festivities continued on my actual birthday on Tuesday. My parents, sister, niece, and nephew came over for lunch and a birthday party. It was really nice to get to spend time with family and friends. I was able to start running a little this week and had high hopes of being able to casually jog the Indy Women’s Half Marathon on Saturday. I had signed-up for this race several months prior to surgery and thought I would just show-up and jog. After experiencing debilitating pain on Wednesday afternoon that kept me on the couch until Thursday. I was feeling a little better on Friday and jogged a mile and walked a few miles with a friend, but was not comfortable at all. I was really hoping that I would wake-up Saturday morning and feel great, but that was not the case. I set my alarm for early Saturday morning, but the alarm was not necessary, as I was already awake from pain. I knew that there was no way I could possibly run 13.1 miles! Instead I went for a casual walk down to the farmers market and on my way back I was so glad that I was almost home and not out on the race course.
I had a really hard time with this. This was not the first race that I bailed out of, nor will it be my last. I struggled Wednesday and Thursday when I was a sloth on the couch and I thought I should be working on the manuscript that needs to be written or do my laundry that is building up. I kept telling myself, “quit being so dramatic and just get up and do sometime!” My mind wanted to be well, but my body just said no! It took me until yesterday afternoon to realize that this is okay. I am only 3 weeks out from having major surgery and there are going to be some bad days and I need to give myself a break at listen to my body. I am going to try to do a better job this week of being nice to myself and only doing what my body is able to do.